kids playing in ma bell’s house

The Vanishing (1993): this wasn't the vanishing that i wanted. hollywood didn't have the original, so i opted for the latter version. funny how sandra bullock doesn't get top billing like the others. sandra was so perfect as a young actress. sad what she turned into. bridges plays the craziest character, sometimes reminiscent of ted bundy. lots of details and i don't know what to call it but maybe false foreshadowing. the whole premise of the story is something that most probably can't even imagine going through (except nate fisher). wonder why its not more popular than it is. maybe because nancy travis was in it. i think i'll have to hunt down the original to compare. remember having to turn on computers from a switch on the back? and here we go with the nosey girlfriend. and who wouldn't choose sandi over nancy??? give the guy a break. the ending was kinda bad. sandra gets totally screwed in the movie. not in the good way. don't see. had a lot of potential going into the end. oh well.

my little bro is in town so he and i went shooting today. we had a really good time just him and i. lately i've been really thinking about the relationships i have with all my siblings. chris and i being the farthest from me, have a different relationship than joe and i. and even though i'm right in the middle of the two, its tough because i'm more in an adulthood where joe is. this isn't at all to say that i don't love the kid just as much as anyone else. we just all relate different. was looking at my sister's closet with all her pics and there are so many with her and chris when they were so young. i never realized that i guess they are closer to each other as far as having that "bond" than probably anyone else. i relate of course most to joe but its pretty sad to think about how much him and i missed of each other growing up. we were always apart for almost as far as i can remember and never became really close friends until so late in life. and even now it almost seems like we really don't know all those things about each other that bros should know. most of this is because we live too far apart so every six months when we see each other its all just about playing catch up and always having to do stuff and not just like me coming over to hang. the shitty part about this is that we freaking lived together for a while and lived like 25 minutes away but for some idiotic reason i didn't do anything with him. i've tried to think back and remember why we never bonded but i can't think why i wouldn't. a ton of my time i know went to girls and what not, but still. guess i just gotta blame it on high school. everything seems to be going to hell right now with my family. grandpa and ruth and larry all just falling apart. and greg trying to be all sweet to me right now and be my friend. i hate him to no end but then its so hard to be angry at him when he's like that. i don't want to give in and allow things to be civil between us. so i think i'll take his gift he got me from tijuana and still hate him.

remember qwest and all the people. i knew an entire other universe that only a select few knew and now its just gone. anders was such a good person. how i miss him dearly. i’m not gonna sit and go through everyone, but there are a few just to make mention of. matt, my dear matty. we are all tired of me praising that unique soul. kristen cooper, all the peggys and that anorexic witch rhonda, ms. truckey, darnell, and joe chambers. the god of our universe and what a caring man. he and i had a relationship somewhere between acquaintance and friend. here is this upper 40’s man, director of hundreds of people, and yet somehow he and i both saw personally each other at our best and worst. now i see his face in my head and its hard to believe that i even knew that person. but he was a father like figure i won’t ever forget. especially since tom, only god knows why, remembers that joe was my boss and reminds me as many times as he can remember. and joni morse. my little friend next door. she was a slacker like i was, but was just better at smoozing her way out of it. she was a good honest friend to me and i really hope she has found what she was looking for, which now that i think about it, i know what it would be. and george, the girl george. and rich who saw through me every second i was there. kenny was a different sort. if there ever was such a thing as the swiss acting devious, kenny would be the leader. but he was that person who would find out first about all my random doings from summer 01. ron, sometimes naïve, other times sharp as a nail. my dear boss cindy. how i let her down. michelle, amber, michael thiel, ron newton, elaine, the neo-nazi village people lookin queer. kristen dawn johnson is complicated. vivian is complicated. paul smith and jan danziger. i was nothing without her lack of care about her job. there are so many, many more. even throw in the good old boys like sol, joe, and that one middle eastern guy who was naccio’s own consigliere. this was a sometimes wonderful world and sometimes more than i could handle. i’ve learned so much from this place. i think back about what might have been there. could have got fired because: 1. they were always firing peeps left and right when i was there; 2. i was a slacker who stopped working at some point in the fall; 3. the project management was the only team we could see affording to lose a person; 4. would have been just my luck. but then again, as a cruel, cruel joke on my sad life, with my luck, had i stayed with them, i might have gotten a better job with them. ron howard was leaving the mailbox manager position to move up the chain and take over his old boss’s (karen) position. once he came to me and whispered that he was going to recommend that i take over his job supervising the mailbox building aspect of voice messaging and being over like 20 something employees. i’ve always been able to scam my way to the top one way or another, but i generally never get too high up in the world. this would have been beyond anything and i wonder if someone like me should actually deserve to take on that privilege. this is the kind of job that gets you noticed and from there on out i would seriously be on a continual climb upward. most jobs don’t get such an opportunity. he was sad to find out that i was planning to leave the company. i hate thinking that this was a possibility. i sometimes try and think really hard back to that time for maybe reasons that would have come up to prevent me from moving up. i don’t see why i couldn’t though. i think kenny ended up getting it so at least i’m glad for that. or did joni get it? and granted, these are just the people in the universe. there was so much more that was part of this life. the travels, lunches, cubicles, rules, elevators, floors, views, drama. it was something else.

how have you been? i'm doing alright i guess.

i feel like i always have something to do but this is never it. i had hoped that with the start of the new block i'd be able to stop this nonsense way of living, but i have failed to succeed. i'm still up till 3 am minimum, do next to nothing but play video games, watch sopranos, watch six feet under, and sleep. all those stupid little habits i had day after day a few months ago have all turned into these new habits. those old habits had been in place for a few years now. of course i'm still attending every class and somehow getting homework done, but who knows how long that will last. san andreas is the most spectacular video game i've ever set eyes on. i'm in so much awe that there are times when i actually don't want to play because i'm so intimidated. sounds borderline retarded i know, but i'm not the ordinary gta fan. since i'm a notch up from others, then i can be a little excited for something like this. and believe it or not but i don't think gta is the only reason for this change in behavior. anyways, i don't know how i feel about school yet. the classes i'm sure will be interesting and such, but i think my attitude dealing with them won't be best. i don't care if i was in a snowboarding class this semester, i'm just so done with school. by the way, i'm taking plsc1100 american government because i need a random three credits of absolutely anything and i figured this would help nicely for dc. then i'm taking legl4130 bankruptcy law from stott, again x 5. it will be good too, as soon as i get the freaking book. once again in my time at this dumpy school does the bookstore fail to get anything right. so i've got a book coming. i'm still so behind on movie reviews. they all sit ever so patiently in my little notebook. working on getting housing out in dc. good opp. found today for an apartment at $630 per month, including utilities. but we shall see. i'll probably know for sure by the last week of july. getting down to the wire though and let's not go into how unprepared i am. on one hand i'm a smart kid who gets good grades and lucky breaks like qwest and sen. bennett, and can learn to excel at pretty much whatever i try at (except economics (i don't know how melchior did it), finance, and some sports, but not many believe it or not). and i'm not trying to sound conceded either. its just sort of how i am. but on the other hand, i'm such a slacker when it comes to pretty much everything. except running. the only good thing i do these days. same mile and a half, but never gets any easier. anything other than a difficult run doesn't seem to ever happen. its not that i don't stretch too because i'm like clockwork with that. six feet ended tonight for kim and i. we watched third season and what a strange, strange season. so much different that the first two. loved it though. good glimpse of people a their extreme highs and lows. reading One L by scott turow. pretty good book that i think kim, jessIE, mom, and mom grover would all enjoy. you rest won't care. its a law school book. this is me saying good night to all. i'm off to los santos.

and here is some random bullshit that has been piling up in the bin. enjoy:

i read this in some article from yahoo news:

"Joining the Bushes were Vice President Dick Cheney and wife Lynne. News organizations hosted show business and sports stars such as Goldie Hawn, Richard Gere, Jane Fonda, Mary Tyler Moore, tennis sisters Venus and Serena Williams and a few supermodels."

i just thought it was funny that they just tossed in the supermodels at the end. nameless bods that show up to special events and do reality shows.

we had this game for light bulbs not too long ago. if one went out, each of us would just hoped the other would change it but no one ever did. so we had a light out in pretty much every room. even the bathroom which are big round ones above the mirror. so her parents were coming for a weekend, and kim caved and changed them all the night before so that they didn’t think we can’t afford light bulbs. then the house got all bright again and it sucked. all the rooms got really hot from all the bulbs. then i started thinking that maybe (after her parents leave) we should keep 1 bulb out of each light fixture that has more than 1. i bet it would save a bit on energy because of the usage of each bulb out and the fact it will naturally keep the house cooler. we probably won’t save any money in the costs of light bulbs unless there is some kind of interaction between the bulbs that affects their usually short lasting supply of magical power. the cons in the deal are that we have to look like po’ white trash when people come over. so i ran it by kim and i'm gonna be enforcing this pretty soon. i'll report back on results.

you think this is bad... 

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elle's b-day party 

suicide is pointless

M*A*S*H (1970): that's crazy that TLC's first single actually had a name. seems like they really wanted me to be impressed with the music, comedy, and camera work. very over the top almost. found it odd that there was no real plot (typical structure of one at least). never really found out what mash even stood for. all i remember is mansion, apartment, shack, house. i wonder why donald didn't keep on and go tv. i love all the different relationships everyone has toward another. the movie did tend to drag a little (like this review). but really just a weird, funny movie. and i know its a movie, but still nice to see our military bucks hard at work. and how can these people in the middle of korea get football uniforms?? okay, i have a little more to say about it so bare with me or skip down. to the rest of you, i wonder if the big football game was actually played by the actors. i would give the movie a few more points in my book to find out if they were. radar was awesome. makes me wonder if he ended up being that good in the tv show or if he lost some of that spark he started with. i can see him just turning into some just stand in comic relief and losing his character. by the way, probably never seen an entire mash episode. between reruns of mama's family and those green uniforms, i all over naomi. i saw why everyone likes the movie so much. kinda not my style though. worth seeing for some good acting and even better laughs. and some day i'm sure i'll buy it.

well i'm back. next up: an even longer review. i can't tell if i'm at a high or low point in my life right now. i have weird habits now like this staying up late thing. i'm so unmotivated to write this right now. i think i don't want to go to bed because i'll feel like i wasted such really nice quite time in my life. or time in general.

so been reading the da vinci code finally. i've only owned the book for over a year now. to be honest, its not the greatest book ever like people say, but it does make you think a little. and its really slow too. some say that its all fast pace, but i'm saying that 15 chapters will go by and nothing has happened. don't get me wrong though. i'm all for seeing the movie next year staring my beautiful audrey tautou.

that's really all i got. i spend more time with my laptop than with all those other people. just kidding. i'm gonna get a beating for that one. and ryan is supposedly coming next weekend. i'm crossing my fingers that he does cuz i've gotta smack some sense back into this guy. oh yeah, and the lsat class is gonna have to become reality again. i shudder at the thought.

my friend is coming

Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939): such the fitting movie for me. starts out pretty slow. this was like the 10th classic movie i've seen where they have to sing auld lang syne. its certainly the most pro-america movie ever. i hope this isn't gonna be me doing all this crap this coming fall. movie is basically cheesy patriotic stuff. but its a great civics lesson for us all. i particularly like the line of, "for a woman, you've done awfully well." how times have changed. most of the jokes weren't as funny as they tried to make them out as. hated the crazy girl that "loved" him but was completely devious. stupid ending. all future senators should be required to see it. no one else though.

man, i don't know why i can't seem to find time to post crap here. lately i've been doing practically nothing. i just don't feel that inspired anymore.

for you smart asses out there, no i'm not gonna make a list of anne bancroft movies i just have to see.

i've decided that eve 6 plays really different music than anyone else. i really like them a lot. i also like the killers just because i can hear so many bands within them. their sound is a combo of like 5 6 other people that i can pick out. anyways, interesting stuff.

so coldplay, oasis, and the white stripes. pretty big lineup. don't think i'll be going for the white stripes are the moment. i like them more when they are rocking big time and i read this is more acoustic-ee. i'm digging coldplay's single like mad. its near perfect so i'll probably pick up that album sometime. and oasis has matt's seal of approve so i'm totally down for picking that up. ozma was something pretty special and its kinda sad they are gone. those three albums of mine brought a lot of joy during some fun times in my life. so hat's off to ozma today. oh yeah, and san andreas is coming out so i gotta get that too. anyone wanna donate to the spoil ethan fund please do so.

you know, these last few weeks i've been really content (despite that wretched class, although now that its over with i actually kinda miss it). and so what if its fake and because i take drugs everyday. is that such a bad thing? that's really open to debate, but i don't think its so wrong. i'm actually happy for once. of course this drug thing might not last forever, but we'll worry about that when the time comes.

what if you were born like ten years after you were really born. like i would have been the class of '09. i wonder how that would change your original life. would you still end up being the hollywood video manager? like, would einstein still be einstein had he been born 10 years later? i don't think he would have. within that ten year span without the einstein we all know and love, other scientists would be making discoveries. of course it probably wouldn't be just a single man figuring it all out like al. but, over time the stuff would eventually get done. as long as people are living, progress will just go on. and back to our trivial lives, i had a ton to say but its starting to get complicated because in order for it to all work i gotta talk about having a soul and if there is preordination and then i'll want to get into details on that. so lets just wrap it up.

slept till 1300, did all things below, its 0336 and i'm still going strong!

Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith (2005): not much i can say about it that hasn't already been said. of course i loved it and all that. i knew i'd love it walking out of attack of the clones. i am lucky enough to say that i remember growing up with star wars in my life back during the original movie frenzy. loved them growing up and loved the first two prequels. people gave them a ton of crap but i thought they were amazing times ten. sure they had their infamous crappy moments, but so much of the rest of the film made up for it. anyways, number three was great. natalie portman was great. i mean, i really didn't expect anything less than what i think now, so it kind of sucks because there was no big surprise. i knew it would be near perfect. i didn't understand why yoda gives kenobi that qui-gon jinn related assignment at the end. if any one's got any ideas let me know. also, i recall leia talking about how she remembers her mom, just barely, and that she was really beautiful. so, instead of thinking that lucas actually made a mistake like this, i'll assume she wasn't talking about padme' but bail organa's wife. there were some bad ADR, which i can't remember what it stands for, but basically the words didn't match the moving lips. usually it was coming from hayden, which could explain why it was bad. the movie let some big stars shine and really have their moment. i thought ewan mcgregor did outstanding. oscar nomination worthy. good seeing other sides of yoda. sam jackson and ian mcdiarmid looked like tired old men fighting. thought the dark side was a joke just cuz i didn't think that mcdiarmid did the best of jobs. and i didn't feel like i really saw a good transformation from anakin into vader. its like a number of years and more experience will have to pass before he really becomes the man than vader is. the puzzle also doesn't fit exactly into place because the battle between kenobi and skywalker was so freaking huge and the impact they will forever have puts to shame the little battle they had in a new hope. and i'm not talking about the way they fought each other twenty-something years later. more like the way they acted toward one another. maybe time changed their feelings for each other or just kinda got over it. by the way, their battle against one another was unbelievable. there is lots and lots of action and story. most scenes lasted less than two minutes, so everything is totally fast pace. i will give my seal of approval for how this movie segue's into a new hope. hats off to that one. and just think, all this crap happens over a girl. it all stems from a single girl. and who is that girl? you all know the answer. so i guess i can't really blame skywalker for going to the dark side. buy it of course.

while running tonight, i put two and two together and determined that i really pride myself in my driving skills. to some, like kim, this won't come as a shock. to everybody else, you could care less one way or an other.

funny how we'll have different opinions about a person if that person dies. like karen and i know ryan as much as anyone else. karen knows things about him that i don't, and vice versa. yet when he dies and karen and i pass along the story of ryan onto our kids, we will be telling them very different stories. that last sentence tends to imply that karen and i will be having children together. kim, there is something i've gotta tell you. haha. just kidding. and not to just pick on kar and rye, but just think about other people. basically, match up three people and try it out. and this isn't supposed to be a big shocker that i've discovered. obviously people have different experiences with each other to give us a number of possible impressions of that person. this was merely conversational and interesting to think about.

my horrible five days a week for five weeks class about nothing by the worst teacher alive is finally over with. i've been having quite the party in my head. all i've been doing is playing games in my laptop. like its so different from my computer i'm typing on right now, but i love it. currently i'm working on my 100% of gtaiii and also playing metal of honor: allied assault. yes, these are very old games and have been sequeled twice over now, but i'm trying to get myself used to the controls of the keyboard so that when san andreas comes out i'll be all set. that sounds really retarded.

with tupac continuing to blow up charts left and right, i wonder how he feels about his music that people put together. does he look down at us from thugz mansion and just shake his head at how they produce his songs? i wonder how he would have put these songs together had he been alive today. would be cool to compare the two versions. hey, that could be a nice double album. maybe pac wouldn't like nate dogg doing vocals on everything he can get his hands on. i hope he approves because i still like all of what i hear.

speaking of, isn't it funny that as soon as summer hits all the rap stations start pulling out all the mexican hip-hop. i guess we all like the image of mexicans rapping in a park in socal drinking their 40s. that is what summer has turned into. not that i'm complaining. i love that 'sub-genre' or whatever you'd call it. i'd rather hear is a mexican do hip-hop than a black guy. mexi-rap though i can go without. it hard to know what they are saying since most of the time its in spanish. anyways, i'm glad summer is here. today was beautiful.